Baby Talk

Life has a funny way of doing things. With Vincent, my pregnancy was completely out of the blue and left me in the biggest state of shock and reality hit hard. When Jeremy & I got married, we were so ready to have another baby even though come to think of it Vincent was only just 12 months. So months later we got pregnant only to miscarry a few weeks later. It was completely devastating and really left Jeremy & I hurt for a long time. It took me a long time to recover physically and people who had gotten pregnant around the same time as me had big ol baby bumps and had their little ones. I was happy for them but at the same time so sad because that was supposed to be our little one.

We had been trying (sorry for those that hate that word) for quite a long time and it had become so stressful. Every month was so disappointing, and Jeremy wasn't a fan of seeing me get upset all the time. I finally decided to really take it serious the next month and try charting and using basal temperature and pin point dates. It worked! After almost two years of ttc we finally got pregnant again. Now, I know that it is still pretty early but the fact that I have made it further than last time gives me hope!

Because of the miscarriage, I've been pretty paranoid. So for the last month or so I've been getting weekly blood work done to check my hcg levels. Just knowing that they were doubling like they are supposed to was so reassuring.

This week I took my test on Tuesday and afternoon and the doctor's office normally calls me back the next day but I didn't ever get a call. For some reason Thursday afternoon they called Jeremy's phone and since he didn't recognize the number (which I would have if they would have called ME) he let it go to voicemail. The voicemail said for met to call them as soon as possible. So I did but in the four minutes since they left the message they had closed! How could they leave an urgent message when I couldn't find out what was up! So being the pessimist i can sometimes be I convinced myself it was over and it was bad news.

This morning when I called, she told me that the hcg numbers look awesome. Why she had to leave me a frantic message like that is beyond me! So she said I don't need to do anymore blood work and I'll see her in a few days for my appointment! -